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tabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-59784810035640161982014-05-31T17:25:00.000-04:002014-05-31T17:25:17.428-04:00My Testimony: From addict to free I apologize in advance for the length. <br />
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This post is for the <a href="http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/current-study/">Proverbs 31 online Bible studies </a>blog hop. We are currently studying, <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Limitless-Life-More-Holds-Future/dp/1400205360">Limitless Life by Derwin Gray</a>. For this weekâs <a href="http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/2014/05/29/limitless-life-blog-hop-week-1-2/">blog hop</a>, Iâve chosen to share my testimony of going from addict to free that corresponds with Chapter 2 of the book. <br />
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I actually have 2 testimonies of going from addict to free. <br />
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The 1st is my addiction to cigarettes. I had been a smoker for about 17 years. I started when I was 20 & ended up officially quitting in 2011, after several failed attempts. I had gotten sick with a bad case of bronchitis and the last thing I wanted to do was smoke. It took about 2 weeks for me to get over the coughing & being sick, but it was enough to get me started on my road to quitting smoking. By Godâs grace, I am proud to say that I have been smoke free for 3 years now & I think itâs been one of the best things that I have done for my overall health and well-being. <br />
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My 2nd testimony of being set free is a little bit more personal for me & the fact that I am able to write & share this with you today is only because of the work that God has done in my life. Especially since I dealt with this addiction in silence for about the same time that I started smoking. It was one that has caused a lot of shame, guilt & fear - which was an addiction to pornography. For many years I carried this addiction that no one knew about & I was too ashamed to admit. But through Godâs grace & mercy, He made a way for me to be open & honest with some people through my church & I am now set free of my addiction. <br />
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My addiction started when I was in my teens and my parents were going through a separation. I had been snooping one day & came across some of my dadâs adult magazines & ended up sneaking them up to my room. By the time I had graduated high school, my parents had divorced and even though I was a Christian by this time â I accepted Christ at 15 â I was devastated. Instead of turning to God for comfort and help during this time, I kind of went through this rebellious stage. I was looking toward others to find my worth and security. <br />
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My porn addiction escalated when I got into a relationship with a guy I had met at a bar where my coworkers and I went for karaoke & several months later, I moved in with him. His roommate had a huge porn collection that my ex & would sometimes borrow videos to watch when he wasnât home. Over the years that we were together â which was 8 â we ended up using porn to âenhanceâ our relationship. <br />
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Several months after we broke up, I had been working for a company of over 1000 people & I started dating a guy who worked on the same floor as I did. We went out for almost a year & broke up after I started attending & joined a local church with my mom. While we were together, we would visit adult stores because he knew about my previous relationship & how we used to watch movies together. This was my last relationship Iâve had. Iâve been single for almost 10 years now, but I also thank God for this season of singleness.<br />
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I ended up attending this church for 5 years until I felt that it was time for me to move on to another church. The church I had been attending is considered to some a legalistic type of church. So while I was a member, I learned a lot about God, but didnât really have a strong knowledge of his love for me. I always felt that I wasnât good enough or that I wasnât doing enough for Him. So, after I left that one, I took some time off and about 6 months later, I started attending a spirit-filled non-denominational church. Four months after that, I ended up joining that one & becoming a member. <br />
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During this time of singleness & church attendance, I spent time growing my relationship with God through prayer & bible study, however, I still continued struggling with my addiction to pornography in which no one knew about, except God. I kept going through the sin-confess-sin-confess cycle for years until last year when I told God I was finally done & something needed to change. <br />
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For many years I had been so embarrassed, ashamed, guilty and fearful of my addiction. It almost seemed taboo for a woman to struggle with this type of addiction. And even if they did, it wasnât something that was talked about in the open. At least where I came from. But God, in his grace & mercy, answered my prayer & made a way for me to be open & honest about my addiction with some trusted Christians that I had already been seeing for prayer and counseling. <br />
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I was nervous about contacting my prayer counselor & spilling my guts about something that I had never spoke a word to anyone about, except anonymously online to strangers. But I was shocked & relieved when I received a response from her thanking me for my honesty. She was so gracious & didnât judge me. We set up an appointment for me to meet with her & 2 other ladies for counseling & an anointed prayer session. After the appointment was over, I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I was also able to share my freedom with a lady I had met with later to set up getting re-baptized that weekend at church - I was baptized once when I joined that church after my relationship ended.<br />
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Afterwards, I had set up weekly meetings & bible studies for several months to keep myself accountable, but to be completely honest, I really didnât need it, other than to help grow my relationship with God. The reason I say this is because I truly believe that once I was open & honest with several people about my addiction & then getting re-baptized, I think it helped fortify my freedom. <br />
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This was back in July of last year & I am happy to say that I am completely free of my addiction. I have not had any urges to look at a movie or magazine of adult nature. And if I do come across something like that now, I just shut it off or walk away from it because it no longer serves a purpose in my life. <br />
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I feel like I have been given a fresh start in life & I know that God has a plan & purpose for my life. I do hope that I will eventually end up getting married one day, but this time, I am going to do it Godâs way. I am also going to cherish this time that I have as a single person & use it serve God the best way I know how, especially when opportunities like this one open up for me to share my story with others. <br />
tabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-9284545520861925692014-01-30T09:32:00.000-05:002014-01-30T09:32:28.672-05:00Made to Crave, week 2, 1 Peter 5:7<div>This post is for the <a href="http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/current-study/">Made to Crave online bible study </a>from <a href="http://proverbs31.org">Proverbs 31 Ministries</a>. </div><br />
<div><div>My goal for this study was to concentrate on drawing closer to God through quiet time, bible study & prayer, more so than the food aspect & the way I crave other things instead of spending time with Him. So, I'm continuing this week to do the bible verse mapping and sharing what I've learned from our verse for the week. <br />
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Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.<br />
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I love how after I read Chapter 4 on Sunday & seeing the verse for the week that I actually had to put it into practice. Without going into too much details, I will share that back in Oct of '12, I was given a promise from God and that it was only here recently within the last few months that I started to see manifestations of it starting to come to pass. However, this week, I guess in a moment of vulnerability the enemy came in & started to plant some doubts in my mind to get me discouraged & give up. <br />
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This was on Sunday night,and by Monday morning as I was getting ready for work, I heard in my spirit "things are not always as they seem. The enemy wants to steal your joy and your peace, don't let him." Then later that afternoon, he reminded me again, "do not give up."<br />
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I love how the word for this week is "determination". I think it's perfect for what I am going through right now & how the Lord reminded me not to give up. It's so easy to do sometimes when we "feel" like things are not going as we planned. We let our guard down for one moment and the enemy decides to step in and plant seeds of doubt & discouragement, then we are tempted to give up trying - whatever it may be. <br />
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Not to give the enemy more credit than he deserves, but it's sad that he knows us better than we know ourselves, especially during times of weakness and vulnerability. He's studied us for a long time and knows exactly what buttons to push to get us to question God. Just like he did with Eve. That is why I had to include the rest of the verse above. <br />
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I wrote the following prayer poem on Monday while I was reflecting on this verse & going through my moment of doubt & questioning. <br />
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Lord when temptations come & life feels out of control<br />
Remind me to look to you, the Lover of my soul<br />
You know me better than I know myself<br />
It is only in you that I will find my rest<br />
The enemy prowls around seeking someone to devour<br />
I need to be on my guard, each and every hour<br />
He wants to kill, steal and destroy the hope I find in you<br />
But I know that with you by my side, i will get my breakthrough<br />
You are my shelter & fortress, in you I can stand<br />
You hold my very life in the palm of your hand<br />
You care for me deeply, because I am your daughter<br />
Bought by the blood of your son & cleansed by the water<br />
I love you Lord because you first loved me<br />
and in your arms I'll always be<br />
safe and secure no need to fret <br />
Because your have not failed me yet. </div></div>tabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-83161790832907935382014-01-23T12:05:00.001-05:002014-01-23T12:09:43.869-05:00Made to Crave, Week 1, Psalm 84:2
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">MY SOUL YEARNS, EVEN
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">2 My soul yearns, yes, even pines and is homesick for
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Does my soul yearn, even
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Do my heart & my flesh
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honest, I wish I could say that I do put God above everything else or that I âcrave
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It becomes very
apparent to me especially when my flesh would rather sleep in that extra 30
minutes in the morning than get up & spend time praying or reading my Bible
before leaving for work. Or when I come home in the evening & plop down on
the couch to watch TV to relax instead of being more intentional about reading
one of the many books that Iâve bought & havenât read yet. One that will enrich my spiritual life
& help me to grow as a Christian. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Yes, my soul & my
heart desire to spend more time with God & to be in his presence. Especially
since I know that on those occasions when I am intentional about spending that
time with God, there is fullness of joy in His presence. I always come away
feeling refreshed, renewed & restored. But my crazy flesh wants to get in
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For me, this "made to crave" journey is going to be more about craving God & His presence in my life than it will be about food. I've done this study several times before & in the past it had been about food & weight loss. But the more times I've gone through this study, I've realized that it's more about putting things or craving things more than I do Him. Through the past times I've been through this study, I have lost weight, controlled my food cravings & quit smoking. But this time, I'm going to focus more on what is keeping me from spending more time with Him. </div>
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tabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-31638404316367364432013-08-25T22:15:00.000-04:002013-08-25T22:15:38.274-04:00#YestoGod Wholly CommitedAs I was debating on which blog topic I wanted to write about this past week, it was clear to me after I went to church on Wednesday night. My Pastor talked about taking up our crosses and following him from Matthew 16:24-28. So I knew that wholly committed would be my topic.<br />
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One thing I have found to be interesting about this #YestoGod journey & Bible study that I started is that it came shortly around the time I made 2 decisions. The 1st was that my 'one word' for the 2nd half of 2013 would be "surrender" and the 2nd is that I decided to get re-baptized.<br />
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Making the decision to get re-baptized is not only a beautiful symbol of surrender, but it also shows that I made a commitment to follow him publicly.<br />
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One of the things that my pastor mentioned that I made note of was that the word <b>deny</b> means to disown one self or own interests. So we have to make a daily decision that will either yield to the spirit or give into our fleshly desires - which is me most of the times. It also means that we need to be putting the things of God and His kingdom 1st. </div>
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Surrendering or denying myself has been difficult because my crazy flesh keeps wanting to get in the way. I'm also used to being independent that it has been hard to let go of certain things that I feel I should be able to handle. But as previous experience has taught me it is in those small things that I need Him most.<br />
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He also said that the "<b>cross</b>" is a <b>sign of commitment</b> and when it says to "deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me", Jesus is saying that we need to lay down our own will and take up "our cross". In order to take up something we must lay something down.So in other words, we must lay down our own plans, desires, wishes and "take up" God's calling, purpose, plan & will for our life. <br />
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That is why I think this whole SURRENDER & YES TO GOD is so interesting. Especially since I've been saved for over 23, but I haven't always been committed to God and His plan for my life. My journey has had many ups and downs and gone down many roads I wish I had never gone. But at the same time, if I hadn't, I never would have had the pleasure of knowing that God "works for the good of those who love Him". (Romans 8:28 NIV). Plus, it wouldn't have shaped me into the person I am today. <br />
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tabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-3838431883769805502013-08-08T15:00:00.000-04:002013-08-08T15:12:14.191-04:00#PalmsUpWelcome to my blog & the 1st post for the <a href="http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/current-study/" target="_blank">online bible study for What Happens When Women Say Yes to God</a> by <a href="http://lysaterkeurst.com/" target="_blank">Lysa TerKeurst</a> hosted by <a href="http://melissataylor.org/" target="_blank">Melissa Taylor</a> through <a href="http://proverbs31.org/" target="_blank">Proverbs 31 ministries</a>.<br />
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For this weeks topic, I chose #3 #PalmsUp. <br />
<em>In the bible study section at the end of the chapter Lysa asks, "What is holding you back from going deeper in your relationship with God?" List one or more things you sense holding you back (fear, intimidation, time, lack of confidence, etc). Use your bible study tools to find scriptures that will help you apply God's truth in this area. Determine to release, <strong>surrender</strong>, and move forward with #PalmsUp receiving all God has for you.</em></div>
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I first chose this topic when the OBS email was sent on Sunday. I hadn't even read the 1st chapter yet, but I already knew this is the one I wanted write about. It was mostly due to the word "surrender" - which happens to be "<a href="link: http://amzn.com/0310318777" target="_blank">My One Word</a>" this year - or at least this 2nd half of the year. I didn't chose my word until mid June, but the Lord has definitely confirmed my choice. </div>
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Then last night at mid week Bible study at church, my Pastor spoke on "What Is In Your Hand?" He talked about how God called Moses to lead the Israelites out of Egypt & Moses told him how he was unqualified. Then in Exodus 4:1-5 God asked him "what is that in your hand?" And Moses said a rod. God told him to cast in on the ground and when he did it became a serpent. </div>
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My pastor said that it wasn't until Moses released what he was holding onto that God was able to finally bring it to life. God can't use anything we are tightly holding on to. </div>
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For me, I believe that fear is one of the things that keeps me from going deeper in my relationship with God. Fear is very paralyzing and it is also the opposite of faith. I know deep down that I need to trust God more - especially in the areas of finances & my future - so that is why I chose the word SURRENDER. I want to surrender those fears to Him, let go off those things that I'm trying to hold on too tightly and live my life with my PALMS UP ready to receive what it is that God wants to give - or take away - as the case may be. <br />
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I wanted to share a few of my favorite quotes from Chapter One that really stood out to me. <br />
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In this first one, I love that she says we don't need perfect circumstances or the perfect religious attitude or all the answers. We just have to surrender - there's my word - all that's clamoring for attention in our heart. <br />
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<em><span style="color: red;">You don't need perfect circumstances to be a woman who says yes to God. You don't need the perfect religious attitude or all the answers to religious questions. You simply have to <strong>surrender</strong> all that's clamoring for attention in your heart with the answer God is longing to hear spill from your lips, "Yes, God." - p. 13 &14</span></em></blockquote>
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This is a great quote on radical obedience. <br />
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<span style="color: red;"><em>You may be surprised to discover that radical obedience is not really that radical. It is really biblical obedience - but we've strayed so far from biblical obedience that it now seems radical. </em>Then a little further down that paragraph, Lysa says, <em>we will never experience the radical blessings God has in store for us without radical obedience. It is the road that leads to blessing. It is what happens when women say yes to God</em>. <em>- p. 18</em></span></blockquote>
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<em><span style="color: red;">Saying yes to God isn't about perfect performance, but rather perfect <strong>surrender</strong> to the Lord day by day. Your obedience becomes radical the minute this desire turns into real actions. Radical obedience is hearing from God, feeling His nudges, participating in His activity and experiencing His blessings in ways few people ever do. - p 19</span></em> </blockquote>
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The following is a screenshot from my iPhone the quote about "God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called." I've seen it posted in emails and on FB and I just love it because all the people that did great things for God in the Bible were just like you and me. Imperfect with our flaws & maybe even a past we're not too happy about, but the great thing is God loves us and will use us despite our human imperfections. All we have to do is being a willing vessel and follow Him wherever he wants to lead us. <br />
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This is my 1st blog post for the study & it is the actually the easiest chapter for me to comment on because I can actually relate to Tracie in the fact that stress can take it's physical toll on the body. <br />
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To briefly share, I had my gallbladder removed back in 2008 & during my recovery, I ended up going through a really stressful time. I found out the church I was attending was teaching some some unbiblical doctrines that I just couldn't handle & I spent the next 7-8 months praying, seeking God's will & gaining enough courage to leave the church. <br />
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Fast forward 3 years, in February of 2011 I ended up quitting smoking after being a smoker for about 17 years. I had been wanting to quit several times before that, but I'd quit for several months and then I start back up again because of stress or other problems. However, this time what changed is that I ended up with bronchitis & then pneumonia, which made it virtually impossible to smoke. So I decided this would be a good time as any. I tried using the patches & gum for the 1st couple weeks, but basically quit cold turkey after that because I was having a bad reaction to both. Overall, it wasn't too bad, but let's just say that it's only by the grace of God that I didn't harm anyone in the process. LOL!!<br />
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By May, I noticed that I started having bad digestive issues. At first I thought it was because of having my gallbladder removed, so I was watching my diet more closely for anything that I may be eating that is either high in fat or spicy, but it didn't seem to help. Then I thought that it may be a food intolerance, so at 1st I started with dairy products, but it only helped some. But after doing some research, I thought it may be a gluten/wheat sensitivity. So, I made an appointment with my doctor & had a blood panel done & it came back with a "possible" wheat intolerance. She wanted me to go on a gluten free diet for several months to see how it would affect me, but after going on it for several weeks I decided it wasn't for me. It was getting to be expensive on a low budget & having to check every label. Plus I DON'T COOK!! Talk about stressful. I talked to my doctor & asked to be scheduled to test for celiac disease. I just wanted to be sure before completely eliminating it & committing to something I didn't have to. So that October I had a small intestinal biopsy to check for celiac, but the test came back negative. I was then diagnosed with IBS, just like Tracie (see p 54). BTW, add on some more stress from doctor visits. YAY!! <br />
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Well, my symptoms over the next year just kept getting worse & by October of 2012, I was becoming a social recluse because of my digestive issues. I was missing several days of work each month. Plus, I also had to take a break from being a choir member at church because I was missing practices and oversleeping on Sunday mornings. After finally having had enough, I went back to my doctor because I noticed that I had slowly developed anxiety, which also lead to mild depression. I had been doing some research and finally came to the conclusion that stress was the culprit & my health was suffering for it. Since there really isn't any kind of official test that the doctor's can do to check for stress related illness, you basically have to rule out the "symptoms" to find the cause. I did, however, have my doctor test my thyroid to make sure there wasn't any issues with it because a couple of the symptoms I had been experiencing matched the diagnosis. But all my blood work came back negative. <br />
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So, just 2 months ago, my doctor put me on an low dose anti-depressant for the anxiety & by the grace of God, it actually has been helping me. I really didn't want to have to go on an anti-anxiety/depressant medication, but I was desperate & I submitted the situation to God before seeing the doctor. So I believe that He can use anything that we submit to Him for His good and perfect will for our lives. I'm not 100% yet, but for the 1st time in a long time I'm getting my hope back & I'm able to spend more time in the Word without being tired, fatigued or too frazzled to concentrate. <br />
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I also believe that God's timing is soo perfect - if I could just remember that & trust in it - because the fact that this study coincided with me starting this medication 2 months ago is only proof that all things work together for good and I am determined to see this study through. :)<br />
<br />tabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-48484005173098924252012-11-29T20:14:00.000-05:002012-11-29T20:28:09.362-05:00See Ya Mediocrity!<br />
This is my first blog post for the <a href="http://greaterbook.com/" target="_blank">GREATER</a> study through <a href="http://melissataylor.org/" target="_blank">Melissa Taylor's Online Bible Studies</a>.<br />
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If you are visiting & not a part of the Blog Hop, you can visit Melissa Taylor's <a href="http://melissataylor.org/2012/11/25/greater-week-1/" target="_blank">website</a> for more information<br />
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For this blog post I chose, "what would a "greater" life for God look like to you?"<br />
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Before I answer that question, I wanted to give you a little background and tell you why I was happy to learn about this book and the online bible study.<br />
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I've been a Christian since I was 15, but became a prodigal after my parents separated when I was 18. It would be another 12 years before I end up rededicating my life to Christ & going back to church. I was an active member in the church for 4 years (2004-2008). However, as my knowledge of God and the Bible increased & after a series of events that transpired, I became grieved because I found out the church I was a member of was full of doctrinal errors and false teaching. I officially left there in August of 2009 & spent the next 4 months figuring out where God would have me go next.<br />
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I visited several churches and even watched a few online. Then I finally found one I was interested in after watching their Christmas play online & thinking how awesome it would be to be a part of it. It would be another couple months before I actually set foot in the church, but when I finally did, I knew I was where God wanted me after the service was over. Especially when the speaker - who was also the worship leader at the time - answered the very question that I had been asking God about days prior. In July of 2010, I decided to take their membership classes and even joined the choir. I've been a happy member ever since, however, there is still a sense of wanting to do more with my life that just working a full-time job, M-F, with weekends off & attending church twice a week.<br />
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I'm also single and I've been struggling with this issue for quite awhile now. Especially since I feel like I waste too much of my free time - evenings & weekends - on trivial pursuits or nothing of real eternal value. It wasn't until recently that the story in John 5 about the lame man near the pool of Bethesda really spoke to me.<br />
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See, I just turned 38 and even though I don't have a physical infirmity that has kept me paralyzed, I do have fears, doubts and insecurities that have kept me paralyzed from fully pursuing everything that God has for me. I like how the man makes an excuse when Jesus asked him if he wanted to get well. I feel the same way in that I make excuses for why I feel stuck & can't move forward in my Christian walk. And it's at this time right now in my life that I sense Jesus is saying to me, "Get up & walk". That is why I was so happy to hear about this book and study because I believe this is the perfect timing for me to start doing GREATER in my life.<br />
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Especially since I have been struggling with bouts of anxiety and depression for several months. I've literately felt like giving up and not trying anymore. I've looked back on my life and where I've come from, and even though spiritually I am grateful because I'm not who I used to be, in the physical I'm very unhappy.<br />
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Last year in February I quit smoking & because of stress, lack of physical exercise & poor diet, my health started decreasing & I started suffering from bad digestive problems.. In October of last year, I had a procedure done to test for celiac disease, however the results came back negative. But after a follow up, the doctor concluded that it must be IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome). At first my symptoms weren't that bad and manageable, but as the months progressed, it started getting worse and worse. Then in May of this year, the Lord led me to a conference where <a href="http://www.sidroth.org/site/PageServer" target="_blank">Sid Roth</a> was speaking & I sensed the Lord telling me that He would heal me. So toward the end of the meeting I went up to have hands laid on for healing, However, I would later learn that this would be a gradual healing, not the instant that I was originally hoping for.<br />
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Then, about a month ago, I decided to take a break from the choir, mostly because my digestive issues seemed to be getting worse, not better. The frequent attacks caused me to become less sociable. So, even though I believed God was (IS) going to heal me, the enemy kept flooding my mind with doubt and unbelief, which I believe is what led to my anxiety and depression. The worst part is that stress makes my symptoms worse, so it just ends up being a vicious cycle. I also started seeing a prayer counselor around the same time I stopped attending choir for encouragement and I'm slowly starting to get my life back on track.<br />
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My main prayer for this study is that God will use it to further encourage me to not give up and start dreaming big again.<br />
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Now to answer the question, what would a "greater" life for God look like to you?<br />
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1. To take back everything that the enemy has stolen<br />
2. To live life with confidence, boldness & strength in the Lord and not shrink back because of fear, insecurity or shyness.<br />
3. To have better faith to trust God for the impossible.<br />
4. To be able to be a better witness to my circle of influence & share my faith without fear.<br />
5. To FINALLY be able to attend She Speaks after 3 years of trying in order to pursue my dream of being a writer.<br />
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If you are visiting from the Blog Hop, thank you for taking the time to read my post & I would appreciate your prayers as I continue on my way back to health and the GREATER life that God has for me. :)<br />
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Last week, I was drawn to the blog of Nicki Koziarz & she had written a blog post sharing how she is on a 30 day quest for God to interrupt her life â her every day, common life. With a little hesitation, something stirred in me that made me decide to âjoin herâ on her quest. Sheâs already on day 7, but you can read her original post here. <a href="http://nickikoziarz.com/2012/05/interrupt-life-jesus/" target="_blank">http://nickikoziarz.com/2012/05/interrupt-life-jesus/</a><br />
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So, this post is kind of a reaction to saying âGod, interrupt me.â And I believe one of the first things God is doing in my life is <b>interrupting my thoughts about Him & how he answers prayers</b>. Because of my belief system and things that Iâve heard growing up, I guess you could say that I kind of put God in a box on how He operates. But something happened to me on Saturday morning that has started to change my thinking. I found how amazing it is that God can speak to us in the most ordinary things, if weâd only take the time to listen.<br />
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Before I went to bed on Friday night I had been studying some stuff in the Bible that I was really getting excited about learning. But there were some things were still confusing me & I verbally expressed my questions to God before getting ready for bed. I had also said some âformalâ prayers as well afterwards.<br />
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In the morning when I got up, I was still half asleep, so I stumbled into the kitchen to fix some breakfast before deciding to get online & read my email devotionals. After I finished eating, I came back into the bedroom â because thatâs where my computer is set up â and I had noticed there was a shiny, almost brand new penny lying on my bed.<br />
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When I first found the penny, my initial thought was that I mustâve dropped it earlier in the week and that it had landed on the bed & it got buried beneath the sheets. Then as I tossed and turned during the night, it became visible & thatâs how I was able to find it. So, I didnât think much of it & set it aside on my night stand.<br />
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I had originally got online to check my email, but I got distracted because my mind was wandering to what I was studying the previous night. So, I decided to visit the website of a Christian program that I watch frequently on TV and do a search for this particular topic. Five episodes came up in the results and since Iâd already seen the first one, I decided to watch the next one down in the list.<br />
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About half way through the 1st part of the interview, this pastor and author happened to mention the very thing that I had been questioning the night before. Not in the same words, but the same idea and concept were being discussed. Then, when they went to the break to give an opportunity to purchase the book that he was offering, I knew it couldnât just be a coincidence that I was lead to search this particular website & click on this particular show. The book that was being offered was a book that I had thought about buying previously within the last year while browsing the bookstore. I had actually picked it up on several occasions, but decided to put it back because it wasnât what I was looking for at the time.<br />
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I paused the show and as I sat there in shock & awe, my attention was averted back to that penny that I had found on my bed that morning. The phrase a âpenny for your thoughtsâ came to mind. So I decided to look it up & I came across the following information from wisegeek.com:<br />
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â<i>âŠwhen the saying originated, a penny was worth a lot more. Thus, a "penny for your thoughts" when the expression was first used likely indicated <b>the thoughts were more value to those imploring the listener to give them than they are by todayâs standards</b>. Still, the phrase is hardly ever taken as an insult even today. Therefore,<b> if someone offers a "penny for your thoughts," feel honored they think enough of you to value your opinion</b></i>.â<br />
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The definition reminded me of a picture I saw that was shared on the FB page of JD Chandler from KLOVE. The picture is for a penny off a pound of ham & people were jokingly commenting of what a âgreat dealâ it was and that they just âhad to go get it nowâ. I donât know if it was a typo or if they were being serious about the discount, but I thought it was quite funny myself, since a penny today isnât worth much as far as a huge savings go. You can view it at the link below.<br />
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The reason Iâm sharing this is because when I read that definition, it was as if God was telling me that He valued me & my questions. So, because of the honesty and sincerity of my questions, He decided to answer it. Itâs also what prompted me to share that particular verse at the beginning of the post.<br />
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This just totally made my day because in my finite mind, I wasnât doing anything spiritual or even praying a âspecial prayerâ. I was just basically thinking out loud & âtalking to myselfâ. But, the God of the universe who never sleeps or slumbers heard me that night & decided to answer. It also told me that I donât have to pray a âformulated prayerâ or use âfancy wordsâ for God to hear me. All I have to do is be honest & sincere about whatever I am concerned about, believe that He will hear, and that He will answer. And that He did. :)<br />
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By the way, I was so excited about all this that since I already had to run out later to do an errand, I decided to purchase the book. And, if you must know the name of the book, it's called "<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Curses-That-Block-The-Blessing/dp/0883682079" target="_blank">10 Curses That Block the Blessing</a>" by Larry Huch. I don't have time to go into all the details right now of why I needed or wanted this book since it's a topic of a WHOLE new discussion. But let's just say, I read it from cover to cover that night & it brought me to tears on several occasions. So I highly recommend it, if it's something you are interested in personally. :)<br />
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Just click on her website <A href="http://melissataylor.org">here</A> & sign up.<BR> <BR> The assignments for week 2 are posted here - <A href="http://melissataylor.org/2011/09/24/a-confident-heartweek-2-2/">http://melissataylor.org/2011/09/24/a-confident-heartweek-2-2/</A><BR> <BR> <BR> The WORD OF THE WEEK is LOVE<BR> <BR> <BR> <A href="http://www.heartlight.org/gallery/409.html"><IMG class=gallery-image hspace=8 alt="1 John 4:16 (27 kb)" vspace=8 src="http://img.heartlight.org/cards/g/1john4_16b.jpg" width=500 height=375></A><BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <STRONG>VERSE OF THE WEEK</STRONG>: 1 JOHN 4:16<BR> <BR> <EM>God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him (her). </EM>1 John 4:16<BR> <BR> I really enjoyed chapter 2 & there was a lot of good information in it, so I just wanted to post a few highlights that I learned this week. Just a fair warning, it is a little long. :)<BR> <BR> The title of Chapter 2 is called, "Because God's Love is Perfect, I Don't Have to Be". <BR> <BR> In this chapter she talks about pretending. We "<EM><FONT color=#c00000>tell people we're fine even when we're not, because we want to be fine</FONT></EM>", . I love what she says here on page 31, "<EM><FONT color=#c00000>Although we tell people we're fine, what we really mean is that we are Frazzled, Irritated, Neurotic & Exhausted"</FONT></EM>. Amen!! <BR> <BR> Here's something else she says about pretending on page 32, "<EM><FONT color=#c00000>Pretending leads to hiding and isolation. What we need is someone who will pursue us and accept us even when we're flawed. Yet most of us doubt anyone would ever stick with us if we let them get too close. So we put up walls and hide our struggles, even from God, hoping we'll convince Him and everyone else that we're fine</FONT></EM>". <BR> <BR> I know I can relate to the above statement. There are many times in my life where I've felt I was better off just hiding my struggles from people because I wasn't sure how they were going to react. Maybe it's because I've listened to the lies of the enemy for too long. Especially when I was younger & wanted to be accepted by others. So I put myself out there & then I get rejected. So, as a defense mechanism, as I grew older it was easy to put up walls to keep myself hidden from others. <BR> <BR> She then goes on to talk about Sam aka the Samaritan woman & how it is one of her favorite pictures of God's pursuit of us. It really is a good example of how God pursues us, if you think about it. John 4:4 tells us that Jesus "had to go through Samaria". Renee writes, "<EM><FONT color=#c00000>Jews considered Samaria to be the scum of the earth. Usually if they were near Samaria they would travel around it - but not Jesus. He had to go through Samaria, because He knew Sam would be there</FONT></EM>." (page 36) I also loved this statement further down , "<FONT color=#c00000><EM>Jesus met Sam in one of the loneliest parts of her day. In the same way, He is there waiting for us in the midst of our imperfect lives, when our pain & failures confirm our self doubts</EM>.</FONT>" <BR> <BR> Now, on the previous page (35) she states that "<EM><FONT color=#c00000>many theologians believe that instead of avoiding the scorching heat of the sun, she went to the well at noon to avoid the scorching pain of others' rejection and judgement</FONT></EM>." <BR> <BR> I know I can relate to that last statement. There have been many times in my life when I have gone out of my way to avoid others because I may have to deal with either their rejection or judgement. <BR> <BR> I love this statement on page 37, "<EM><FONT color=#c00000>If you've ever doubted God's personal pursuit of you, let this truth sink in, my friend: wherever you are, He wants to meet you there. He is waiting for you to stop, come up close, and turn your heart to listen to His. You don't have to pretend things are fine when they aren't. He knows what is going on in your thoughts. Nothing could keep Him from wanting to be with you</FONT></EM>." <BR> <BR> That statement is so true. It's one thing I love about Jesus. I don't have to pretend with Him. He already knows my pains & struggles. He knows when I'm hurt, upset, worried or fearful. He's not like others who may reject or judge me. The only thing I have to do is accept His invitation to stop & be willing to meet with Him. <BR> <BR> Here are a couple of statements from pages 40 & 41 that stuck out to me. <BR> <BR> On page 40, Renee gives the definition of the word "KNOW". The greek word is yada, which means <EM><FONT color=#c00000>a deep emotional experience; a bonding between two people when one truly feels the emotions of the other. Jesus knows your pain, fears, doubts, and disappointments. He understands your dreams and desires.</FONT> (p. 41)</EM><BR> <EM></EM> <BR> <EM><FONT color=#c00000>"Although some of us feel uncomfortable that God knows so much about us, it is good to be known, to be listened to and not judged. J</FONT></EM><EM><FONT color=#c00000>esus is the only One who can meet our deepest needs to be accepted and delighted in simply who we are</FONT>." (p. 41)</EM><BR> <EM></EM> <BR> <EM>"<FONT color=#c00000>By offering Sam eterenal life, </FONT></EM><FONT color=#c00000>(see John 4:13-15) </FONT><EM><FONT color=#c00000>Jesus was offering her the gift of His Holy Spirit, who would cleanse her sins. But even more than that, it would lead her into a relationship where she could know the one true God and be known by Him</FONT>." </EM><BR> <BR> "<FONT color=#c00000><EM>Christianity is the only faith that offers a relationship with the living God. We don't just know about our God; our God wants us to know Him</EM>.</FONT> "<BR> <BR> On page 42, Renee talks about our image of God. She states, "<FONT color=#c00000><EM>Oftentimes our image of God is shaped by early childhood memories and perceptions, good and bad</EM>.</FONT>" She goes on to talk about how her perception of God was based on her image of her own father. She states that she "<EM><FONT color=#c00000>perceived God as distant, unavailable and unapproachable</FONT></EM>." Which I something I could totally relate to. <BR> <BR> I was closer to my dad than my mom growing up, maybe because he seemed like the 'fun' parent & my mom was more "stern." Usually if mom said no, I would go to dad & try to pursuade him into saying yes. So, when my parents seperated when I was 18 - 3 years after getting saved - it was heart-breaking & devastating. I went through my "prodigal daughter" phase & tried distancing myself from God. When I did finally come back to God, I felt like I had to "prove" myself worthy of His love and acceptance. Even though I was the one who distanced myself from God, I felt that if I didn't behave the right way or do the right things, that God would leave me also. <BR> <BR> It's taken me several years to finally accept God's love & mercy & not have to try to earn or accept it. It's very freeing & liberating when you can get to that place, knowing you don't have to stay on God's good side for Him to love you. Or ever have to worry that you may do or say the wrong thing that will cause Him to leave or abandon you. His word says that He will never leave us nor forsake us. (Hebrews 13:5)<BR> <BR> I love what Renee says on page 43, "<EM><FONT color=#c00000>A personal relationship with God sets us free to be all we were created to be. 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I subscribe to the daily "love letters" from His Princess ministries & yesterdays letter reminded me of the song, "Beautiful Things by Gungor. I just love that God can take what is broken & turn it into something beautiful. I also love that He loves us so much that we can come to Him as we are, but He also loves us too much to leave us that way! So, I wanted to share this video today. I hope you enjoy. <br />
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I picked this verse because it goes along with the sermon that my pastor was speaking on Sunday - which is the Quest for Truth! <br />
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My pastor started this new 4 part series on Sunday called "The Quest". As the 1st line of his sermon notes states, "<span style="color: red;"><em>For the next four weeks, we (as a church) will be on a quest, a pursuit, a search for the things of God" </em></span><br />
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<span style="color: red;"><span style="color: black;">I'm really excited about it & if you're interested, you can read part one at the link above. :)</span> </span><br />
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The main reason for this post is that I just started an online bible study for the book, <a href="http://reneeswope.com/aconfidentheart/">A Confident Heart</a> by <a href="http://www.reneeswope.com/">Renee Swope</a> & it is being hosted by <a href="http://www.melissataylor.org/">Melissa Taylor</a> of Proverbs 31 Ministries. <br />
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Our <a href="http://melissataylor.org/2011/09/19/a-confident-heartweek-1/">assignment</a> for this week was to read chapter 1 & answer the reflection questions at the end. So, for this 1st post, I just wanted to briefly share what I learned from this 1st chapter. <br />
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Renee describes how she was wrestling with self doubt regarding an event that she was going to be speaking a the next day as she was putting on her mascara in the bathroom. She also talks about how this wasn't the first time she's struggled with self doubt & described several incidents that happened when she was younger. <br />
She then stated that as she turned around in the bathroom to put away her mascara in her makeup bag, she noticed a huge 9 foot shadow that was so much bigger than her 5 foot 2 inch frame. Then as she bent down to put her mascara in the bag, she sensed God whispering to her heart, <em>You can only see the shadow because you have turned away from the light. Turn back toward the light </em>(page 22). As she stood up & turned back toward the light above the mirror she realized that she was no longer standing in the shadow. She says that was the day she discovered the shadow of her doubts. <br />
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The rest of this chapter goes on to talk about what it's like when we decide to listen to doubt's whispers.<br />
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I really like this quote on page 22 <br />
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It's not too late to join in this online study. We are currently doing one chapter a week, so you can jump in at anytime. All you need is the book, which you can purchase online or any major retailer & a computer. If you click on the word "assignment" above, it will take you to Melissa's website & the 1st weeks assignment post. You can also comment on her post to let her know you are joining in. I know she'll be happy to have you join us. :) <br />
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I wanted to share some things that I've learned this week & some of my answers to the Bible study questions at the end of each chapter. <br />
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<strong>Chapter 1: Always RSVP: Revealing the secret to responding to God</strong>. <br />
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I RSVPed to God's call in 1989. Then about 3 years later I decided to take a trip into the "far country" (see Luke 15:13). I finally returned to God in 2004 (you can read some background story at this <a href="http://tabrownwv.blogspot.com/2011/04/prodigal-daughter.html">link</a>). <br />
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In the 1st Bible study question, Rachel asks us to read the parable about the man throwing a feast (Luke 14:15-24) and we are to list the excuses that people made for not being prepared to attend. Then, she asked what excuses we have made for not responding to Christ, or not being "dressed and ready". <br />
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Well as I mentioned above, I did respond to Christ in 1989 & again in 2004 after 15 years of back-slidding. But that is not all that He asks of us. Once we are saved, we must continue on in our walk with Jesus in order to be ready for his return. Sometimes that is easier said than done. In Matthew 26:40, Jesus states that the "spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak." And, I can confirm from my own experiences that this statement is so true. As much as I want to read my bible & spend quiet time with God each day, the concerns & worries of this world seem to have taken dominance in my life. I also become self-absorbed at times in my hurts, feelings, & wants instead of focusing on God & what He wants of me. <br />
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Question 2 asks what Revelation 19:6-10 says about the bride (church) and her wedding dress? The NKJV says in verse 8 that, "...to her it was granted to be arrayed in fine linen, clean and bright, for the fine linen is the righteous acts of the saints." My pastor has stated many times that when Jesus returns, he is looking for a church that is "without spot or wrinkle". He's also said that if no one wants to see a bride that looks like she's been drug through the mud, then how much more true should it be for the bride of Christ. (I'm paraphrasing there because I can't remember the exact quote). We need to be "dressed & ready" for His return & the only way we can do that is by the saving grace of Jesus. It's through His shed blood that we are redeemed (Ephesians 1:17)<br />
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<strong>Chapter 2 - Know When to Pay Retail. Revealing the Secret Cost of Following Christ. </strong><br />
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This was a powerful chapter in that it talks about the cost of following Christ. <br />
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She gave an example of the parables of the Hidden Treasure & the Pearl (Matthew 13:44-46)<br />
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In Verse 44 Jesus compares the kingdom of heaven to a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. The man hid it again & sold everything he owned to get the treasure. Then, in verses 45-46, Jesus compares the kingdom of Heaven to "a merchant on the lookout for choice pearls. When he discovered a pearl of great value, he sold everything he owned and bought it!" (NLT)<br />
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Here's a couple quotes that really stood out to me of what Rachel had to say about both of these two parables. <br />
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"<span style="color: red;">The difference between these two parables is that in the first, the man simply stumbled upon the treasure... He's an everday guy who happened upon the treasure and realized its worth</span>." (p. 46)<br />
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"<span style="color: red;">The field buyer's story tears down my tendency to think living sold out for God is only expected of monks, scribes, nuns, pastors or missionaries. Nope, this sold-0ut living - and the treasures it brings - is for any and every Yahweh Sister. It's for each gal willing to pay the price in her daily life to follow Christ.</span>" - Since I'm an just your average sister in Christ, I must be willing to pay the price in my daily life to follow Christ. "<span style="color: red;">The pearl merchant, unlike the field buyer, actively searched for his treasure</span>." - I must be actively searching Him & his will. "<span style="color: red;">Both of these characters recognized the worth of the treasures they encountered and literally dropped everything to obtain them</span>." (p. 47) - Since I know the true worth of what Jesus did for me, I must also be willing to drop everything to follow Him. <br />
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"...<span style="color: red;">there is a great price to pay to lay full hold of the treasures of God's kingdom. I consider it the price of abandon</span><span style="color: black;">."</span> (p.47)<br />
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"<span style="color: red;">He wants to disciple us and show us the way to the treasure, but that requires some focus and a surrendered commitment on our end. In other words, we must abandon ourselves to Him and sell out to the one true thing worth selling out to</span>." (p. 48) Wow. I love that statement. Jesus paid the ulimate price for my sins on the cross and, do I believe that is definitely worth selling out to. Absolutely. So, I need to make it my goal to daily abandon myself to go 'all out for Jesus & not be wishy-washy about it. Because I'm either in or I'm out." (Another paraphrase from my pastor)<br />
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Another parable she discusses is the one about the rich, young ruler (Luke 18:18-23). <br />
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"<span style="color: red;">Jesus essentially says to him, <em>If you really want to enter into true life, sell out to Me with careless abandon. Give up your allegiance to all your stuff and your power, and content yourself in walking daily with Me</em></span>." ... "<span style="color: red;">Only he didn't recognize it. He didn't have the eyes to see it's worth. He misjudged the value of the kingdom of God and settled for his stuff - a counterfielt pearl</span>." (p. 50) <br />
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In Luke 18:24-27, "<span style="color: red;">Jesus points out that weath provides a sense of security, comfort, and pride that can cloud our spiritual vision, causing us to miss the worth of the kingdom of God</span>." (p. 50-51) Rachel then goes on to say that, "<span style="color: red;">This shakes me to my core when I get honest about how much time I spend pursuing creature conforts instead of the treasure of Christ</span>." - Wow. I could totally relate to that statement. Since l know that I can't take my "stuff" with me when I die, why do spend so much time trying to accumulate things that don't last. When I think about all the times I've wasted sitting in front of the TV watching re-runs of shows & movies I've seen a 1000 times, instead of spending that time pursing God in His word & through prayer. I feel bad. <br />
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But I love what Jesus says next. After the disciples & witneses wondered aloud who could be saved if this rich, young ruler couldn't be, "<span style="color: red;">Jesus assured that salvation will always be impossible for man to earn, but God will give it to those who yeild it to Him.... then Jesus let the disciples know that <em>even more</em> will be given to those who not only yield, but wholeheartedly sell out to Him with abandon</span>." (p. 51)<br />
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In Luke 18:28-30, Jesus promises that whomever has given up everything to follow him will be repaid many times over in this life as well as receiving eternal life... I love it, because that is a wonderful promise to hang on to. Anything that I have to give up to follow him will be worth it. <br />
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Rachel states next that, "<span style="color: red;">This </span><span style="color: red;">motivates me to examine my heart and see if I'm barely yielding, or really abandoning myself to God. Am I the pearl merchant, or the rich, young ruler?</span><span style="color: black;">" -</span> This were 2 great questions that I also need to ask myself as well. <br />
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"<span style="color: red;">Through these parables, Jesus reveals the paramount <em>worth</em> of the kingdom of God, and the secret reality that anything we give or lose as a result of following Him is more than a bargain for what we'll receive in return</span>." (p. 52) - I'll say "Amen" to that! <br />
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"<span style="color: red;">I'm a die-hard bargain shopper, but Jesus has taught me that one thing is worth my all, worth paying retail for: the kingdom of God and its King, Jesus</span>" (p. 53) - I'm also a bargain shopper as well & prefer to buy most stuff when it's on sale. But I agree that the kingdom of God & it's King, Jesus are DEFINITELY worth paying retail price.<br />
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The 1st question that Rachel asks in the Bible study is, "<span style="color: red;">What character do you identify with most: the stumbling field-buyer, the searching pearl merchant, or the rich, young ruler</span>?" <br />
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If I'm honest, I think I'm a mix of the searching pearl merchant & the rich, young ruler. On the one hand, I want to live completely sold out for Jesus and live my life with total abandon. However, because of a prideful & selfish spirit, there are still areas that I'm struggling to leave at the altar. I guess you could say that I'm sort of a control-freak when it comes to certain things and because people I were close to have let me down in the past, I have a difficult time trusting God with those same things. It's really hard, but I'm slowly starting to trust God and know that He truly does have my best interests at heart. <br />
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Well, I could probably go on, but it's getting late and I know this post is LONG enough. So, in closing, I wanted to share a video I found on YouTube. The song is, ironically called, Souled Out and it's by Hezekiah Walker. We sing this song in church & I started singing it to myself while reading this chapter. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. :)<br />
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The story of the "prodigal son" (<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke+15%3A11-32&version=NKJV&src=embed">Luke 15:11-32</a>) was the main theme of my <a href="http://www.mfctoday.org/">church</a> for the past several days & there is a great reason for it. See, we started a spontaneous revival last Monday night & the condition was that if one person got saved, we would go the next night & so on, until no one gets saved. Well, by God's tender grace & mercy, we've had over 200 precious souls give their life to Christ. We've also witnessed marriages & relationships restored. People are being healed, delivered, set free & most of all, âprodigal sons & daughtersâ are coming home!! Glory be to God!!<br />
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Well, the original purpose of this post is for me to step out of my comfort zone, be vulnerable & share my heart. So, if you'll bear with me for just a few moments, I'm going to do just that. The reason I decided to start this post off with what's been going on with my church - well, not only do I think it's awesome & deserves to be shared - but because the story of the 'prodigal son' has been weighing heavily on me lately. You see, I was once a 'prodigal daughter'. And, I promise I'm going to give you the âreader's digestâ version - as my pastor likes to say. LOL!<br />
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I was 15 years old when I got saved. I had invited my friend to church one night & that evening, we both decided to get saved together. After that night, I continued going to church but the only time my bible saw the light of day was during a church service. The majority of the time it collected dust on the shelf. So, even though I understood what it meant that Jesus died on the cross for my sins, I never took the time, outside of church, to develop a personal relationship with him. <br />
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My official journey into the 'âfar countryâ (<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke+15%3A13&version=NKJV&src=embed">Verse 13</a>) began about 3 years later when my parents separated and I quit attending church. Then, by the time I turned 21, and was still living at home with my mom & younger brother, I started rebelling. I was going out on weekends with my co-workers, hanging out in bars to drink & sing karaoke. <br />
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It was during this time that I ended up having a âvery shortâ affair with a co-worker who was about my dad's age. I never thought I would do such a thing, but it ended up being more âemotionalâ than âphysicalâ. I was still very vulnerable & was dealing with some heavy emotions over my parent's separation & divorce that I think I was looking for another 'father figure' type. <br />
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Soon after our affair had ended, I met a guy who was a regular at the bar my co-workers & I went for karaoke. He would also later become my boyfriend with whom I'd live with for the next 7 years. Not only that, but the kicker is that I knew his mom & he knew my dad before we even met. When my dad left, he ended up staying in the same apartment building that my new boyfriend's parent's lived in. Then, about 2 years later, his mom became my trainer at my new job - the same one with the co-workers I went with to sing karaoke. Too weird. <br />
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OK, since I'm trying to write the âshortâ version here, I won't go into all the details of our relationship because I could literally <strong>write a book</strong> about everything that happened. But let's just say that if I thought the affair was bad enough, then that was just the tip of the iceberg. Because, not only was I entering a relationship with someone without being married (fornication), but he was also an agnostic, which means that my relationship with God would became even more distant. On a side note, I would like to make it known that even though I had become distant toward God, He never left my side. He always sent me little reminders to let me know that He was there. <br />
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By the time I finally did go back to church & saw my sinful nature reflected back at me through the mirror of the 10 commandments, I was SO ashamed. In over a 10 year period, I had pretty much broken every single one of those commands - I've lied. I've stolen. I've taken God's name in vain. I've coveted what other people had. I've also created idols of the people & things around me, consulted tarot cards (divination) & worshiped angels through new age practices. By the way, even though I'd never âofficiallyâ murdered anyone, I did have a lot of anger towards my dad & other people. Which, according to <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+5%3A21-22&version=NKJV&src=embed">Matt 5:21-22</a>, is akin to murder. OUCH!! <br />
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I was a complete mess. I kept thinking to myself, âhow could God ever forgive me after all the things that I had done?â. It was in that moment when I <strong>completely</strong> understood what Jesus did for me (<em>and you</em>) on that cross. (<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+5%3A7-9&version=NKJV&src=embed">Romans 5:7-9</a>) And, in November of 2004, I repented of my sins, rededicated my life back to Christ & was baptized. The forgiveness & restoration that God as shown me during that time is just scratching the surface of what God's been doing in my life up until now & I hope I get the opportunity to share more of it with you soon. :)<br />
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In closing, I just wanted to say that no matter what you've done, or how far in the country you've ran, it will never be far enough that God's love can't reach. It's there for the taking. All you have to do is reach out & take His hand. If you do, I promise, that it will be the most exciting adventure of your life. <br />
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The purpose of this post is because Ann Voskamp of <a href="http://www.aholyexperience.com/">A Holy Experience</a> is giving readers an opportunity to win a <a href="http://www.aholyexperience.com/2011/03/how-christians-create-art-she-speaks-scholarship/">scholarship</a> to this years <a href="http://www.shespeaksconference.com/">She Speaks Conference</a> in July. She Speaks is an annual conference for speakers, writers & ministry leaders & is brought to us by the lovely women of <a href="http://www.proverbs31.org/">Proverbs 31 Ministries</a>. <br />
<blockquote><em>"The She Speaks Conference is about women connecting the hearts of women to the heart of our Father God and that your heart is to serve Him and His daughters, as He leads."</em></blockquote><br />
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In order to enter the contest, you must have a blog & link back to the post on Lysa's website. You also need to share some information about the conference & why you want to win the scholarship. <br />
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Now that I've shared some information about the conference & contest, here are some of my reasons for wanting to win the scholarship:<br />
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* I started writing poems while I was in Junior High.<br />
* I also got interested in reading books on developing my writing & poetry skills during the same time.<br />
* I believe that God put the desire in my heart to write & use it to encourage others.<br />
* My 1st poem that I believe was God given/inspired was âLonely Soulsâ which was written after I had a falling out with my dad & stepmom after he went into the hospital for surgery.<br />
* After sharing the poem with others, I got the encouragement I needed to continue writing. <br />
* I believe that every child of God has a story to tell & that the outlet that He has given me to share it is writing. <br />
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This is actually my 3rd attempt at trying to go. I learned about the conference over 3 years ago & the 1st time I tried was when I entered a similar blog entry contest & didnât win. The 2nd time I was actually going to pay my own way, but because of my own fears & some financial problems that arose, I had to cancel about a month before the conference. Now, Iâm entering the scholarship contest yet again in hope & prayer that this time will be different. <br />
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Iâve already read a couple of the other entries and, to be honest with you, I feel like I should have waited until after I posted my own before reading them. There are some really good entries listed and for me to attempt this a 3rd time is a big step in following & being obedient to Godâs leading. I really have to humble myself because I know there are some people who have entered that either have way more experience, speak more eloquently or even write better than I do. However, that is not a good excuse for me to not even try. <br />
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<div>It would be real easy for me give up this year & think to myself, âwhy even bother?â, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that this is exactly what the enemy would want me to do. He wants me to throw in the towel & will start planting seeds of doubt like, âwhat makes you think you can win, or even have what it takes.â He will also throw in some thoughts like, âdid you really hear from God? And even if you did, what makes you think that people will want to hear what you have to say?â</div><br />
<div>Now normally in the past I wouldâve have listened to those doubts. But not this year. No, Iâve decided to take my stand & not let my own fears or prideful thinking get in the way of what I believe God is calling me to do. Since God doesnât give up on us, then why should we. Just because I didnât get the opportunity to go in the past, doesnât mean that I should give up completely. This desire that He has placed in my heart is still there & even stronger today as it was back then. But, I've also purposed in my heart that if I donât make it this year, guess what? Iâm OK with it, because it just means that itâs not my time yet & that I still have some more refining to go through. <br />
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I also find it very humbling to realize that a holy God that created the universe wants to use someone like me to share my story in order to encourage others. He doesnât <em>have</em> to or even <em>need</em> to use me, but He chooses to anyway because He loves us. We just have to be willing & obedient to His calling on our lives. <br />
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<strong>1 Peter 2:9-10 (NKJV) states:</strong> <br />
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A couple weeks ago, actually the 1st Sunday of the year, my pastor gave an awesome <a href="http://www.mfctoday.org/messages/its-prime-time-for-us-to-shine/">sermon</a> on 2011 being a "prime year" & making this the time to not miss our "Kairos" - or "God-appointed" - moments. "Kairos" is one of 2 Greek words used in the Bible for "time" & it "<strong>is a pivotal point in a personâs life where profound and significant things are divinely destined to occur."</strong><br />
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One of my "Kairos" moments happened a little over a year ago when I felt I was lead to my new <a href="http://www.mfctoday.org/">church</a>. I had recently left the church that I was a member of for almost 4 years & was desperately seeking to grow closer in my relationship with God. Before I was so focused on the religious aspects of Christianity & doing the right things, that I forgot to "crave" that relationship with Jesus. My "cup" was becoming clean on the outside, but the inside was still a dirty mess. <br />
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After I started attending my new church for awhile, I KNEW deep down that this was where God wanted me to be, at this particular time & I thank HIM everyday that He has me right where He wants me. :)<br />
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Well, I'm hoping, believing & praying, that I am in the process of my next "Kairos" moment. <br />
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I recently signed up for the <a href="http://melissataylor.org/2011/01/16/made-to-crave-wk-1/">Made to Crave Online Study</a> hosted by Melissa Taylor. <br />
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The book is by <a href="http://www.lysaterkeurst.com/">Lysa Terkheurst</a> & she is currently hosting live webcasts on Monday nights. The first one was last week, but you can check out the website - <a href="http://www.madetocrave.org/">Made to Crave</a> - for more information. I'm really excited about reading this book & following the online study. <br />
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If you haven't heard about the book yet, it's about "the missing link between a womanâs desire to be healthy and the spiritual empowerment necessary to make that happen." (<a href="http://madetocrave.org/about/">http://madetocrave.org/about/</a>) Most importantly, it's about "craving God" more than we "crave food". <br />
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I'm still growing in my relationship with God & I have been "craving" more of Him lately. I heard Lysa say that people have used her book for the other things we "crave" more than God, not just food. So, that is why I'm looking forward to this journey. <br />
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For me, this journey will not only be about learning healthy eating habits, but I'm also hoping to use it as a guide to help me ONCE & FOR ALL quit smoking. I've tried quitting twice before to only start back up again. So, I'm hoping to use this book & it's principals to not only learn better eating habits, but I'm also BELIEVING & TRUSTING in this journey to help me KICK THE HABIT for good. Plus, I believe both of these areas go hand in hand. A lot of people turn to food or gain weight while they are quitting/or after they have quit. So, I don't want to be the next person who ends one bad habit, only to start another one. <br />
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Each Sunday the assignment is posted for the week. So, I'm hoping - as I follow along this study - to update my blog at least once a week to keep myself ACCOUNTABLE. There are discussion questions at the end of each chapter & I'm planning on keeping an offline journal to take notes. I want to use this blog, as well as the Made to Crave community on <a href="http://www.facebook.com/pages/Melissa-Taylors-Online-Bible-Studies/136856323040519">Facebook</a>, to share what I'm learning each week. <br />
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On a closing note, I really enjoyed my Pastor's sermon this morning. He talked about the man who was healed by the pool at Bethesda in John 5. In verse 8, Jesus commanded him to rise, take up his bed & walk. And because of his obedience, the man was made well & got up.<br />
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I like what my Pastor said, "If we can do the possible, God can do the impossible." The key is that we have to be obedient. We can't expect to change & not put in any effort. So, I'm believing that during those times when I feel like I'm struggling or unable to continue in my own strength, God will intervine & give me the strength to do what is beyond my ability. :)<br />
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Thanks for taking the time to read this post. And, please feel free to leave me a comment or even a word of encouragement. :)<br />
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I pray everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I know I did. It's been several months since I've posted anything on this blog, so I thought I'd post something to let you know that I'm still around. :) <br />
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Since yesterday was Thanksgiving, I thought I'd make a quick list to share what I am most thankful for this year. <br />
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~ First & foremost, I am thankful that God sent His son to die on the cross so that I can have everlasting life. <br />
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~ I'm thankful that I am saved & a child of the Most High God. <br />
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~ I am thankful that after I had left my old church, God has been faithful to lead me to another one that I am proud to call my church home. The people there have been gracious in welcoming there & making me feel at home. I thank God everyday that He has lead me to a Bible-believing church where Jesus is being preached, the pastor is annointed & people are being saved. <br />
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~ I'm thankful for the family - mom, brother, grandmother - that God has blessed me with. <br />
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~ I'm thankful for the wonderful friends that He has brought into my life. Both those I have in person & those whom I've had the pleasure to get to know though the internet. <br />
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~ I am thankful for the job that I have had for the past 3 years. <br />
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~ I am thankful for my health - even though I know I should be eating better & exercising more. <br />
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~ I am also very thankful to have a roof over my head, food in the fridge & a car to get me to where I need to go. <br />
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I'm sure there is more that I could add to this list, but it is already after Midnight, so I thought I would go ahead & end it there. I hope everyone has a blessed weekend & I will, hopefully, write more later. :) <br />
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Tiffanytabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-29960239146994549932010-05-23T01:50:00.002-04:002010-05-23T01:53:52.525-04:00JOYI just posted my first entry on my other blog. I recently joined a bible study a couple weeks ago and the book we are doing is <em>Living Beyond Yourself</em> by Beth Moore. I'm actually on week 5 of the study, but I just got a chance to get my notes together on the last lesson, which was JOY. <br />
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You can read the post by clicking this link - <a href="http://aformerwallflower.blogspot.com/2010/05/living-beyond-yourself-week-4-joy.html">Living Beyond Yourself: Week 4 JOY</a><br />
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They are currently studying, Living Beyond Yourself by Beth Moore. When I joined the group they were already on week 3, but I was able to borrow the first 2 DVD sessions to get myself caught up. So that is where I'm going to start with on my review notes of the bible study. <br /><br />We have our studies on Tuesday nights & I wanted to post this earlier in the week before I started this week lesson, which is on peace, Unfortunately, I didn't get around to making my notes until earlier today, so this is actually from last weeks study. <br /><br />The Joy of the Lord is Our Strength - That was the name of the introduction to the study on JOY. <br /><br />Before I go on with the actual notes from my lessons, I just wanted to mention how AWESOME I think our God is and how I love the different ways He uses to get our attention. <br /><br />Right now, I'm not a member of any church. Some of you may/or may not know that I used to be a member of the SDA church. Well, as of last year, I had my membership removed. For the sake of time & space, it's too long of a story for me to go into the full details right now, but I'm currently working on my testimony of why I left the church. I'm hoping to have that up on my website before Sunday night. But if I don't, I will have it ready by next week sometime. With that being said, for the past several months I've mostly been joining some different bible studies during the week - such as this one. And since I've gotten used to sleeping in on the weekends now, I usually watch some services on TV or online. <br /><br />Well the day after my Tuesday night meeting, on my way home from work, something told me that I should visit a local churches website where I can watch live services online. Since it had been raining earlier that day, I already knew I wouldn't be going anywhere that night. So at 7pm that evening, I got online to watch the service. <br /><br />I've visited this church on Wednesday a few times, so I was already familiar with they're format. They sang a few songs, the pastor said a prayer & they started the study. Well, guess what the first words he just happened to say was? If you said, "the joy of the Lord is our strength", ding, ding, you would be correct! His study that night was on 'joy' and the different things in our everyday life that can steal our joy. I just got a HUGE kick out of this & was pleasantly surprised when I opened up my study for that week and the title of the introduction was "the joy of the Lord is our strength". Had I not been obedient that night, I believe that I would have missed out on a huge blessing. <br /><br />So back to my lesson... The Greek word for Joy is chara, which means 'joy, rejoicing, gladness." In many ways it means, "to celebrate"<br /><br />The 5 areas of Joy (chara) that Beth mentions in the study are:<br /><br />1. Salvation<br />2. Discovery<br />3. Restoration<br />4. Abiding (or remaining) in Christ<br />5. The body of Christ - or fellowship<br /><br />Here are just a few notes that I've taken that describe each area. The words in <span style="color: red;">red</span> are quoted from Beth in the study.<br /><br /><br /><strong>Salvation </strong><br /><br />"<span style="color: red;">Salvation is a gift of grace that we have a privilege to accept</span>." The Greek word for grace is charis, which means "unmerited favor." <br /><br />Read Luke 10:17-20. Jesus says in verse 20, "Rejoice that your name is written in Heaven." This is definitely a reason to be joyful. Knowing that the God of the universe sent his son, Jesus, to die on the cross for our sins, so that we can spend eternity in Heaven with Him. <br /><br /><br /><strong>Discovery</strong><br /><br />"<span style="color: red;">The discovery of one perfect treasure - Christ, Jesus</span>." (Matt. 13:44, Matt 28:8, Luke 1:44, Luke 2:10, Luke 10:21, Luke 24:52) <br /><br />"<span style="color: red;"><em>Chara</em> is the supernatural result of which flows from the glorious discovery of our Lord & Savior in every circumstance where we wish to find him</span>."<br /><br />"<span style="color: red;">Joy also comes as a surprise through our trials in which the "presence, purpose & power" of God is best discovered through our difficulty</span>." I know this is true because I've been through several trials and, even though I didn't understand it at the time, I was joyful at the end result & seeing how God had worked through that difficult situation.<br /><br /><strong>Restoration</strong><br /><br />She gives several examples of finding joy in restoration<br /><br />1. Difficulties & trials - "<span style="color: red;">One reason God allows us to experience troubles is because He desires to reveal his joy to us through restoration</span>" (Psalm 7:1-24)<br /><br />"<span style="color: red;">I am convinced we cannot begin to really know Christ until we learn to fellowship with Him in His sufferings</span>." (Phil 3:10) We know that just as Christ suffered, that we will have to suffer as well. I know from experience that the Christian walk is not an easy one, but I believe that it will be well worth it in the end. <br /><br />"<span style="color: red;">If God has ordained difficulty for you, he has also ordained restoration for you</span>" (1 Peter 5:10) <br /><br />2. Our own sins (Psalm 85:6)<br /><br />3. Our separation from God (Jeremiah 31:1-20) "<span style="color: red;">Discipline basically means 'teaching'</span>." (Hebrews 12:6-7,10)<br /><br /><br /><strong>Abiding in Christ</strong><br /><br />Remain in Christ - the Greek word for remain is meno, "to abide, dwell, live" <br /><br />"<span style="color: red;">to remain in Christ means to cling to him, to refuse to be budged under pressure, to never allow loss to cause us to leave</span>." <br /><br />"<span style="color: red;">the key to "abiding" or "remaining in Christ is in John 15:3, 7, 10</span>"<br /><br />"<span style="color: red;"><em>Chara</em> can be lost as well as gained</span>" <br /><br /><strong>Reasons we may lose our joy:</strong><br />1. When our out pour exceeds our intake<br />2. When our talk exceeds our walk<br />3. When we become 'wonders junkies' <br />4. When we are exhausted<br />5. When we feel all alone <br /><br /><br /><strong>Body of Christ</strong><br /><br />(Romans 15:30-32, Romans 16:19, 2 Corinthians 2:3, 2 Corinthians 7:4, 2 Corinthians 7:7, Phillipians 1:25-26, Phillipians 4:1)<br /><br />"<span style="color: red;">We are a catalyst of joy for one another</span>" (Hebrews 10:24-25) <br /><br />"<span style="color: red;">Joy not only comes from the body of Christ, but also adds joy to the body of Christ. Our joy makes us soul winners</span>" (Psalm 51:12-13, 1 Peter 3:15)<br /><br />I throughly enjoyed this study on Joy. I've started the first few lessons this week on Peace & it's interesting how much peace & joy are greatly linked. Which is very easy to see because it's hard to have peace if you're unhappy or have no joy. <br />I'm already planning on posting my notes on that study sometime next week, probably Tuesday night or Wednesday, before I start the new lesson. I think it's easier to take notes as I go along with each days lesson & then, at the end of the week, write one complete post to summarize what I've learned.tabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-59045915381626295842010-05-13T23:58:00.001-04:002010-05-14T00:04:32.677-04:00Been busy...I know it's been a while since I've updated here, but I've sort of been busy with some bible studies, going out of town, trying to get my exercise in, working, dealing with being tired, etc. <br />
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I wanted to let you know though that I started another blog - in my minds eye, I can see your jaws drop thinking, "why another blog when she doesn't even update this one?". Well, I'll tell you why. Right now, I'm going through an important period of my spiritual journey & I want to be able to document it. <br />
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Why online & not just in a personal journal? Well, mainly because I'm not really keeping a seperate journal for that area of my life right now. And, also because I just finished a 6 week bible study & have started another one. I want to, not only share what I've been learning through these studies, as well as my own devotional time, but I also want to use it as a way of keeping myself accountable. <br />
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I'm gonna be honest, it's hard when you're single & live by yourself. Sure, you have free reign to do what you want & go where you want, but it can also get you into trouble. Especially with a broken-down Jesus girl, such as myself. I don't have anyone physically present to keep me accountable for my actions. So, it's really easy to slip & not pray, study or even pick up my bible like I should. <br />
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It's also the same with exercising & dieting. I wrote in a previous post that I had a exercise plan that I wanted to do. I actually was doing it for a while, but then I stopped. And, since I didn't post anything to my blog about it, nor did I tell anyone who did read my post, no one knew what happened to give me any kind of words of encouragement. <br />
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The other reason I decided to create a seperate blog is because I want to keep all those types of posts in one area & not confuse those with my regular 'every day' posts. It makes it easier to find and I also think it keeps the blog more organized that way. <br />
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So, with all that being said, here is the link - <a href="http://aformerwallflower.blogspot.com/">A Former Wallflower Learns to Dance</a>. I just started it, so I don't have any posts right now. But I do have a static page up that explains how I came up with the title of the blog. I'm getting ready to work on typing out my testimony from the past year & will let you know when that is up. I will be posting that on my new blog, as well as, my website. <br />
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Well that is all for now. It's getting late & I need to be going to bed soon. It's been a long week & I'm just grateful tomorrow is Friday. :) <br />
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<a href="http://www.glitter-works.org/" target="_blank">glitter-graphics.com</a>tabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-7750127580361212522010-03-26T09:58:00.000-04:002010-03-26T09:58:28.855-04:00THE U IN JESUS<span style="color: black;">I got the following in an email and wanted to share! :) </span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-size: 24pt;">THE U IN JESUS </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">Before U were thought of or time had begun, <br />
God stuck U in the name of His Son. </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">And each time U pray, you'll see it's true, <br />
You can't spell out JesUs and not include U. </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">You're a pretty big part of His wonderful name, <br />
For U, He was born; that's why He came. </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">And His great love for U is the reason He died. <br />
It even takes U to spell crUcified. </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">Isn't it thrilling and splendidly grand <br />
He rose from the dead, with U in His plan? </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">The stones split away, the gold trUmpet blew, <br />
And this word resUrrection is spelled with a U. </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">When JesUs left earth at His Upward ascension, <br />
He felt there was one thing He just had to mention. </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">"Go into the world and tell them it's true <br />
That I love them all - Just like I love U." </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">So many great people are spelled with a U, <br />
Don't they have a right to know JesUs too? </span><span style="color: black; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">It all depends now on what U will do, <br />
He'd like them to know, <br />
But it all starts with U. </span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">~ Author Unknown ~</span>tabrownwvhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141355231769784201noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6452193632292273938.post-8792818099748347922010-03-21T22:25:00.000-04:002010-03-21T22:25:25.570-04:00My New Workout ChallengeI have this idea for a workout challenge for myself. I came up with the idea after I was watching an infomercial for a new exercise program that I saw on TV that I wanted. I knew that I really couldn't afford it right now, plus I'd rather wait until it's available in stores before I decided to try it out. <br />
<div> </div>Anyways, I thought to myself, "Why waste money on another workout program that'll probably get used maybe once or twice, then get stuck on my shelf to collect dust, especially when I have all these other workout DVDs just sitting around. Plus, I'm always complaining that I get too easily bored with my workout routine." Then, that is when I had this idea. <br />
<div> </div>The specific goal was to make a list of every DVD workout that I own with the total number of minutes per workout. Then, once I figured up how many individual DVD workouts I had, I would assign a specific workout to a certain day. The ending goal is to go through all my workout DVDs within a specific time frame without using the same DVD twice. <br />
<div> </div>I have 2 reasons why I think this will be a fun and interesting challenge: <br />
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<div>1) I get to change up my exercise routine each day, so that I will not get bored & want to quit. I kind of have this tendency to find specific DVDs that I really like and then I use those over and over again until I get bored with them. </div>2) It gives me a chance to go through my entire collection while taking inventory of ones that I really like and once that I could do without. <br />
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<div> </div>I thought about this idea over a week ago, so today I finally sat down to make my list. Well, after counting up all the DVDs that I have - including sets & individual DVDs - I found I that I have 45 in total with approx 77 variable workout routines. <br />
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<div> </div>Here's a couple pictures that I took of them all below. <br />
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</div>Now some of these DVDs have multiple workouts on them and are broken into sections. For example, one of the videos that I have is called, 10 Minute Solutions: Fat Blasting Dance party. The total video time is 54 minutes long. But, there are actually 5 - 10 minute workout routines on the DVD. So, lets say that my goal is to exercise for 5 days/week, and on those days I do either one whole DVD or one specific routine per day, Since this particular DVD is broken into 5, 10 minute workouts and each one is a different routine, I could easily do this DVD for one week, and not do the same routine/exercise twice. Which is my goal. So, that by the time I've finished, I will have gone through my entire collection. <br />
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<div> </div>I'm planning on starting this goal hopefully tomorrow. I haven't decided which one I will begin with, but I'm planning on printing a calendar off my computer to keep track of the specific workouts that I do. I also want to make this as flexible as possible because I know that schedules change and things happen. I will also be planning on checking in here at least once a week, probably at the end, to give you an update and let you know how things are going. <br />
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<div> </div>So, wish me luck & feel free to leave some comments and let me know what you think. :) <br />
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